Honestly I haven’t taken much time to reflect on how far I’ve come this year. I know it’s far and grand, but I feel I still have so much farther to go, that I don’t think it’s the right time for to pause and take it all in just yet.
But there is something I’ve been talking about through out this entire year, and I was just recently made aware of Alexa.com, and with out knowing it, they completely mapped out the exact thing I’ve been talking about.
The Ups and Downs of Life.
If there’s one thing i’ve learned over the past year, it’s that life is a matter of ups and downs. It may sound cliche, but when you’re able to realize this, you won’t get too hung up on the highs, and more importantly, you won’t get too depressed about the lows. Both are equal parts that create your Life Wave.
And this year, more than any other, I experienced this phenomenon to both extremes. It seems like every time, I’m just about to hit the next level in my life, i get blindsided by something that brings me back down a few pegs. The way i look at it, It’s the universe’s way of testing you, seeing if you’re really worthy of the opportunities the next level has to offer. And it is in this moment where you are given two choices. Give up or Come back even stronger with more resilience, and resolve in knowing that you are meant to do this, and nothing will stop you. It is only part of the wave.
Alexa.com has shown my wave for 2014 perfectly and this is why:
I started earthporm.com around the beginning of 2014, the blog for the facebook page Earth Porn, which I’ve been building up for the last 6 months or so prior.
As soon as I made site and started sharing it on facebook it took off like a rocket, reaching heights and profits I’ve never seen before, exponentially growing every single day. Although I was doing well with Mindopenerz.com the previous year up to that, I’ve never seen anything take off the way earthporm.com did.
In the height and excitement of it all, I decided to move out of my parents house and drop out of my last semester at community college. Of course I had some help from my professor, who after trying to explain to him why I can’t take away time from my growing business to give 7-10 hours everyday at a free internship, tells me that I need to “change my mindset” and I’ll “get nowhere with that attitude.”
That was the final sign I needed to leave, so I did.
Everything went well for the next month or so. I had my entire future planned out in my head, at the rate my facebook pages were growing I saw that the number of followers would only keep doubling exponentially, and I could only expect it to grow from now until the end of time, I had made it, and now i could sit back and just watch it all grow…
And then reality set in.
Out of no where, facebook started cutting the organic reach of fan pages, in an effort to “clean up the newsfeed”, but more importantly, to strong arm fan pages to pay to reach their followers. Over night the reach of my pages got cut by 90%
In one day, I went from making enough money to never have to worry about it again, to not having enough for rent.
This was one of the first and biggest times, i seriously questioned whether or not i should continue doing this, or how long would it even last. But after a few mental breakdowns, I picked myself up and calmly began building everything back up again.
I hired a few writers to start writing for the blog daily, so I would have new content everyday, and I started sharing more posts, and spreading out to talk to other pages again.
Everything picked back up and i was on the rise again, doing even better than i was before, when my main advertising network dropped my as a partner with no warning, and notified me I would not be getting my last two months of checks.
I’ll say, the last dip before this definitely helped prepare me to handle this one better, but I’d be lying if i said this didn’t hurt. Two month of my hard work, The best two month of revenue i ever generated, gone. All of which happened about 2 days after I booked the flight to moved to Los Angeles. If my resolve was ever to be tested, this was definitely the time.
After a much needed day away from the computer, I came back and began contacting every ad network I could find. And although my CPM was a lot lower, i started driving more traffic to the site, and partnering with even bigger pages and celebrities, and since then have continued to grow. Sure the dips come but, after the year I’ve had, I’m a lot better prepared to handle those downs, and looking back I can realize, that it’s just another part of the wave. Both are necessary for life to flow.
This year I’ve seen great heights and great lows, my will and resolve has been tested constantly, but anytime I feel doubtful about what I’m doing I remember this quote from The Alchemist:
“We who fight for our dream suffer far more when it doesn’t work out, because we cannot fall back on the old excuse: “Oh, well, I didn’t really want it anyway.” We do want it and know that we have staked everything on it and that the path of the personal calling is no easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey.
Then, we warriors of light must be prepared to have patience in difficult times and to know that the Universe is conspiring in our favor, even though we may not understand how.
I ask myself: are defeats necessary?
Well, necessary or not, they happen. When we first begin fighting for our dream, we have no experience and make many mistakes. The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and get up eight times.
So, why is it so important to live our personal calling if we are only going to suffer more than other people?
Because, once we have overcome the defeats—and we always do—we are filled by a greater sense of euphoria and confidence. In the silence of our hearts, we know that we are proving ourselves worthy of the miracle of life”
Prove yourself worthy of the miracle of life. When life’s wave takes you down, don’t let it keep you there. Use the momentum to shoot yourself even higher. Hope you had a great 2014, and here’s to an even better 2015!